Where to start.
Yesterday was hands down the worst day of my life and the worst day of all of our lives.
Trina has been having pain in her side for a few weeks and went to the doctor twice about it. The last time was about a week ago and I was with her. Her PCP (primary care physician) told her it was just due to hormones with the pregnancy. Okay, weird, but oh well.
Saturday night mom woke me up at 2:30 am and said she was taking sissy to the ER for her pains. Mom got home at 8:30 am and told me the news; after doing extensive tests, the ER dr told mom and Trina that the cancer was back. Not only was it back, but that it had spread to her lymph nodes and liver.
Thankfully (?) I had Asa as sissy was home trying to sleep and talk to Joshua. I was able to take care of the kids and keep myself busy with them, the whole time raging at God. Trina came over later in the afternoon and we just were stunned. She kept saying "I have liver cancer." She did NOT tell Asa and I did my best not to cry or let the kids know anything was up. Later on in the evening I decided to pray and open my Bible. The first two pages were not very helpful but I kept reading. The next three pages were full of promises that God will heal and protect anyone, as long as they ask and believe it. I became peaceful and prayed that His will be done. That is the hardest thing to pray and I've had to do it before with Trina.
This morning Trina got up and immediately started calling doctors. First up was her surgeon who had diagnosed her breast cancer 16 1/2 years ago. He was doing rounds but his assistant said to come in NOW and he would make room for her. While they (mom, sissy and Josh) were on their way, Trina heard back from her OB/GYN personally and he said he was looking at her CAT scan and that he didn't see anything that would convince him that it was cancer. Yes, there are lesions on her liver and something wonky with her lymph nodes, but that it wasn't time to panic. He also said that he's done chemo with several women who were pregnant. Yesterday morning the ER doc told Trina that she needed to terminate the pregnancy, start chemo, radiation and basically that she was riddled with cancer.
Papa and I met Trina and mom at sissy's PCP's office with some more news after seeing her surgeon. He said did a full breast exam and found nothing in there. Furthermore, after reading the CT scan he said where the lymph nodes that are wonky were, is not normally where breast cancer spreads to. He did set up an MRI for tomorrow afternoon and we'll know more then. Unfortunately he noted something on her lung.
Finally, she went in to see her PCP and mom and I were with her. He went along with what the other two doctors are saying; yes, there is something there but it could very well be some enlarged blood vessels in the liver brought on by the pregnancy, which is causing a respiratory infection (the spot on her lung) in which case would explain the enlarged lymph nodes. He said now is not the time to panic.
Yes, it could still be cancer. But we don't know!
We will know more tomorrow after the MRI. Her surgeon is going to get the report and if he doesn't call Trina back by 4:30 pm he gave her his cell phone number for her to call him.
We have so much to be thankful at this time:
* God has promised us that he will heal
* Trina has an amazing team of doctors on her side that will not stop until they/we know what this is and she can get in immediately with them.
* IF it's liver cancer, it is very possible that it is just in her liver.
* Our faith and BELIEF in God has truly been restored.
I don't want to sound melodramatic which is why I didn't post yesterday. Actually, I couldn't write the words yesterday. I only emailed a handful of people at first and couldn't even write the "C" word.
Today? Today we have HOPE!!!! Today we have FAITH!!!
TODAY WE KNOW WE ARE IN THE MIDST OF A MIRACLE HAPPENING!!!!!!!!
I beg you all to please continue praying for Trina. There is a very special prayer chain that is all praying for her at 7:30 pm PST every night until she is in the clear, whether that be tomorrow or in a year.
I'm thankful to God for giving us these promises in the Bible and am ashamed that I only crack open the Book in times of need. I am also thankful to YOU for praying/sending good thoughts/thinking of Trina, Joshua and Asa during this time. It is my strong belief that I will be writing in a few days saying she is HEALED.