We were the closest family possible. Our world was turned upside down on 05/03/09 when my best friend, the person I love most next only to our children, my sister Trina was diagnosed with stage IV breast cancer. Her body gave out on her on 01/09/10 but she will ALWAYS be a part of our daily life and will continue to be in my posts. I started my blog to chronicle our daughter's international adoption from Guatemala and have continued to use it as a journal.

What you will find is my family trying to adapt to our new lives that were handed to us.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009


My beautiful, strong, amazing, faithful sissy. We went out to lunch today after she had the genetic testing and going to the medical facility store. My sister, my 39 year old sister, had to pick out a shower seat and a walker. Something about this, hell, ALL of this, is so not fair yet she handles it with pride and faith and strength. She was so excited to get a snazzy, pretty, red, 4 wheeled walker with brakes and a basket for her purse along with a seat that she can rest on when she get tired. I cannot think of anyone who could handle this better. She gives me strength when it should be the other way around and for that I feel like yet again I have failed her. And please don't leave any comments saying that I haven't because it doesn't do any good and I am not writing this for sympathy for me, it's to say how amazing SHE is.

This morning, papa playing indoor soccer with Asa before I took the kids out to Grama's. And thank you for the offer Grama, but tomorrow is a big, stressful day with the brain scan and then waiting for the results so I want to watch the kids, with papa's help, and be extremely busy with them. Thank you for having them today though, it was greatly appreciated.

I asked Asa to strike an action soccer pose for me and he more than happily obliged. In fact he did about 5 of them.
Our sanity.
If it weren't for these two miracles this whole unmanageable shitfest would be utterly unmanageable. I thank God for them many, many times a day.
My rosary is back on and I've even broken out the big guns; my necklace that I wear as a bracelet with three rings on it that say "FAITH" "STRENGTH" and "PATIENCE" that I wore the whole time waiting for Valentina to come home.
I am begging all of you to pray for strength for us. Strength for the results. I know I sound negative and that I'm not expecting a good outcome. I guess I'm not. I know it is up to God. God could heal her at any time. I know God didn't give her cancer, but honestly, God CAN heal her at any moment and that is what I'm struggling with. However, I am trying my best to trust in Him (see? caps are back). However, there is NO REASON and NO SENSE to this. I'm not angry with God, but am waiting for Him to perform the miracle He has promised. Anytime God, anytime!
Praying for strength for Sissy and us tomorrow. I'm also praying for a clean scan, but most of all strength.
Also, please keep the following people in your prayers also:
- Brittney, our cousin who suddenly lost her father. We cannot imagine the pain she is going through right now.
- Mary and Greg, siblings who are dealing with Greg's cancer.
- My dear friend J who will be seeing an MS specialist tomorrow.
I know there are many more that I'm missing but please keep them in your prayers also. There are a countless number of people who are going through their own hell, it's just that I am too wrapped up in ours to really concentrate on theirs and that is selfish on my part.
God give us strength for tomorrow.


Kate @ Life As I Live It said...

You got it Cameo...prayers for strength being sent up. And for healing.

Kim said...

I have the time for Sissy's scan on my calendar to remind me to pray.

Mandy said...

You all will be in my thoughts and prayers today.

Woohoo for snazzy red walkers(I mean, if you have to have one, it might as well be red, right?). I think she should put a bike bell on it too!

Grama said...

I wear my bracelet a lot too. It isn't fair but not much in this world is. Trina still looks so beautiful. Love you all so much. I will be praying all day for the best and for strength.

JuJu - said...

praying for and with you :) Loves you guys:)

bodegalee said...

You've got my prayers always!!

Alaska Family said...

You are going to be in our thoughts and prayers all day...
Love you

jill marie said...

You are so right about your sister... she is amazing.. and a fighter... and strong.. and faithful. Hopefully someday she will realize the amount of people this story is touching... she is making others strong by showing us how to deal with issues with grace.


We are all praying.

Marianne said...

Praying for you all Cameo. Trina is absolutely amazing and strong and she truly inspires me. And you, are a great and wonderful sister to her, and I am sure without you there by her side, there is no way she would be able to deal with this situation with the grace and strength that she has.