This morning, papa playing indoor soccer with Asa before I took the kids out to Grama's. And thank you for the offer Grama, but tomorrow is a big, stressful day with the brain scan and then waiting for the results so I want to watch the kids, with papa's help, and be extremely busy with them. Thank you for having them today though, it was greatly appreciated.
I asked Asa to strike an action soccer pose for me and he more than happily obliged. In fact he did about 5 of them.
If it weren't for these two miracles this whole unmanageable shitfest would be utterly unmanageable. I thank God for them many, many times a day.
My rosary is back on and I've even broken out the big guns; my necklace that I wear as a bracelet with three rings on it that say "FAITH" "STRENGTH" and "PATIENCE" that I wore the whole time waiting for Valentina to come home.
I am begging all of you to pray for strength for us. Strength for the results. I know I sound negative and that I'm not expecting a good outcome. I guess I'm not. I know it is up to God. God could heal her at any time. I know God didn't give her cancer, but honestly, God CAN heal her at any moment and that is what I'm struggling with. However, I am trying my best to trust in Him (see? caps are back). However, there is NO REASON and NO SENSE to this. I'm not angry with God, but am waiting for Him to perform the miracle He has promised. Anytime God, anytime!
Praying for strength for Sissy and us tomorrow. I'm also praying for a clean scan, but most of all strength.
Also, please keep the following people in your prayers also:
- Brittney, our cousin who suddenly lost her father. We cannot imagine the pain she is going through right now.
- Mary and Greg, siblings who are dealing with Greg's cancer.
- My dear friend J who will be seeing an MS specialist tomorrow.
I know there are many more that I'm missing but please keep them in your prayers also. There are a countless number of people who are going through their own hell, it's just that I am too wrapped up in ours to really concentrate on theirs and that is selfish on my part.
God give us strength for tomorrow.