We were the closest family possible. Our world was turned upside down on 05/03/09 when my best friend, the person I love most next only to our children, my sister Trina was diagnosed with stage IV breast cancer. Her body gave out on her on 01/09/10 but she will ALWAYS be a part of our daily life and will continue to be in my posts. I started my blog to chronicle our daughter's international adoption from Guatemala and have continued to use it as a journal.

What you will find is my family trying to adapt to our new lives that were handed to us.



Monday, November 23, 2009

Today

Today sissy goes in to review her blood work that was taken Thursday.

Today mom and sissy are convinced that it will show that she is cancer free.

Today I have a lot of anxiety.

Today I'm grieving for my friend Mary who lost her brother Greg to cancer on Friday.

Today I'm thinking of how Greg was diagnosed just a few weeks after Trina was.

Today I'm thinking of how easily Greg and Trina could have had the same outcome.

Today I'm not sure I believe in God.

Today I'm trying not to cry for Mary and Greg and their families.

Today I'm scared.

Today, if mom and sissy are right, will flip itself on it's end.

Today I feel guilty for all the good things we have in our lives.

Today I learned that although yes, Guatemala IS opening adoptions, it won't be with the United States.

Today is..........

4 comments:

Mandy said...

Please update when you know more. sending all of you hugs and love. It was a year ago this week that I met Trina!

Ann AKA-Clare'sMom said...

I just wanted to let you know I'm here..... I wish I could hold your hand...

Ann

Valerie said...

Keep us updated! HUGS to you! We are here for you!

WTF Guatemala isn't opening to the US? ARRGG! Logan's been asking for a baby brother from Guatemala for Christmas..

Tracey said...

Just want you to know that I love you...