The day sissy died I thought of those tickets sitting in the safe and wanted to sell them ASAP. I wanted them, along with all the dreams sissy and I had of using them, to be out of my house and out of my mind. I didn't sell them. I still have them. And I am now two months away from from either using the tickets or selling them.
Now before everyone starts telling me "Trina would want you to go," blah blah blah, I remember back to July 2009 when we had tickets to see Coldplay. Oh how hard Trina tried to go but six hours before the concert started she came to the realization that she couldn't do it. Up until a few days prior, and even that morning, I had made the decision that even if sissy and Josh couldn't go, Norm and I WOULD go. When Trina called me up to tell me to sell her tickets my decision was made, I could NOT go without her. I sobbed, not about missing the concert so much but about what cancer was doing to us, what cancer was robbing us of, the physical reasons that sissy couldn't go, the fact that my sister had cancer... AGAIN. It was horrible. All of those cemented plans of Norm and I going even if Trina and Josh didn't were instantly blown away as if they had only been ash. And I never ONCE even for the briefest seconds ever regretted not going, but I think I WOULD have regretted going.
So I need to decide what to do with these tickets. Go? Try to convince Joshua to go with us? Have Joshua bring a friend (he has friends up there)? All of the above? Don't go? I have no clue. C'mon sissy, help me out here!
U2 closing out their North American Tour
Hands down one of the greatest nights of my life BECAUSE it was shared with my sister.