We were the closest family possible. Our world was turned upside down on 05/03/09 when my best friend, the person I love most next only to our children, my sister Trina was diagnosed with stage IV breast cancer. Her body gave out on her on 01/09/10 but she will ALWAYS be a part of our daily life and will continue to be in my posts. I started my blog to chronicle our daughter's international adoption from Guatemala and have continued to use it as a journal.

What you will find is my family trying to adapt to our new lives that were handed to us.

Friday, May 27, 2011

On The Road To Feeling Better

I've been sick.

Really sick.

Like one trip to Urgent Care and two trips to the ER in four days sick.

I woke up Saturday morning with my ear hurting and thought "ooh, this might not be too good." I have a tendency to get ear infections and 25 1/2 months ago I had one so bad they thought I would need surgery. Whenever my ear starts to hurt like this I use some ear drops that were leftover from said ear infection and it gets better.

It didn't get better.

After I took the kids out on a lunch date Saturday, just the three of us (Beya and Papa went to the cabin and Norm was working) I realized that this was no ordinary ear ache. As soon as Norm got home I went to Urgent Care and was prescribed an ear drop antibiotic and ear drops for pain.

Sunday morning it was worse so I had Norm take me to the ER. I was prescribed different meds.

I don't remember much as I was taking heavy duty pain meds every two hours and it was still excruciating. Tuesday evening I had mom take me to the ER again. There's a long emotional story about that but I'm tired right now (this is the first time I've been on the computer in a week). I was prescribed a different antibiotic for a third time. THAT finally started to work and by Wednesday night I was starting to feel a tiny bit better.

Poor Beya has had to take over for me and take care of the kids for the past week. I haven't been able to do anything.

I went to my PCP today and have an appointment with an ENT on Tuesday. There's much more to the story but I'm finally on the road to recovery..... I think. At least I'm down to taking meds every four hours and my ear pain is subsiding so much that I can feel my back pain again! Who would have thought I would be so happy to have my neck and back pain! I'm totally serious, no sarcasm at all.

So that is what has been going on with me for the past week.

Sunday, May 08, 2011

Happy Mother's Day Mom


You've asked me the past few days what are the lessons I learned from you. To list just a few:

* never leave anyone out

* don't tell somebody I don't trust something I wouldn't mind everyone knowing

* I can't control how other people act, but I can control how I REact (I know Grandpa taught you this one)

* question everything until I get an answer that feels right

* I don't just marry the man, I marry his family so I better get along with them!

* spend half of my money and save the other half

* follow my passion

* that I could be whatever I wanted to be

* always say goodbye to my family as if it is the last time I see them because one day it could be

* above all, family comes first and no matter what, my sister will be there for me like no one else can.

Mom, the last one was the most true of all them all. We learned how to be a family from YOU. YOU taught us how to be close, that even though we fought and sometimes didn't like each other, that we were all family and it was a bond that nobody could break. I'm so grateful that I am part of you and that I am able to have you with me every day

I love you so much mom.

Saturday, May 07, 2011

Happy Mother's Day Sissy

Dear Sissy,

I would normally write you a Mother's Day post so even though you aren't here to read it I am still going to do it.

I'm so grateful that we were able to see each other become moms. It was truly the job we were meant to do and we did as much of it together as possible.

You were the best mum mum Asa could have ever had. You loved him with all your heart and he loves reading how much loved him in your blog book.

I'm so glad you had the first baby because from you I learned:

* no matter how much attention or love your child gets from everyone else, a hug from his mom is always the best.

* how to be a more relaxed mom

* that it's ok if the kid falls down the stairs, he'll still be handsome..... and smart :)

* consistency is key.

* if you don't know what to do, read a parenting book (I still don't do this one but it was great to see you do it!)

* patience, patience, patience

* you don't stop your life because you had a child, you live your life WITH your child

* take your child on a date, just the two of you

There are countless other things I learned from you. We had so much fun in our teens and then being selfish in our 20's. We partied and had fun and knew how to be the life of the party.

But it was in our 30's that we became moms and that was the greatest part of our lives together. We still partied, we just called it going out to lunch with our kids and Beya.

I will forever love and miss you but at least we were able to see each other become the women we were meant to be, which was to become mothers to the two most adorable, loving children ever born.

Happy Mother's Day sissy.

Tuesday, May 03, 2011

May 3

It comes every year, May 3rd.

May 3, 2009 - sissy was diagnosed with cancer.

May 3, 2010- sissy had been dead for four months.

May 3, 2011 - today.

There is no escaping May 3rd.

Sunday, May 01, 2011

This Time It IS A Little Thing

Those of you who have been reading my blog for a while know my love of the word "wonky". I've been surprised the number of times I've heard it recently. Valentina used it the other day, "mama, my shoe is wonky" because it was coming undone and her toe was sticking out. Papa laughed when he heard it and asked her what WONKY was. She looked at him and said "it's when something feels funny." I love this word. I thought I had invented the word until people started emailing me stories of where they heard it. I have always loved the fact that people think of me when they hear the word because, well, I do. So imagine my happy surprise when I flipped on HGTV (remember, I'm an HGTV slut on the weekends) today and saw the following:

Sometimes it IS the little things that make me smile :)