We were the closest family possible. Our world was turned upside down on 05/03/09 when my best friend, the person I love most next only to our children, my sister Trina was diagnosed with stage IV breast cancer. Her body gave out on her on 01/09/10 but she will ALWAYS be a part of our daily life and will continue to be in my posts. I started my blog to chronicle our daughter's international adoption from Guatemala and have continued to use it as a journal.

What you will find is my family trying to adapt to our new lives that were handed to us.

Wednesday, August 03, 2011


Things have been busy lately and are only going to get more so. I can't believe Asa goes back to school THIS month!!! There were so many things we were going to do this summer! I feel like we haven't done any of them although this month is almost cram packed and we did do a few fun things. I feel like time is just running by me and yet at a stand still. Not one second goes by that I don't miss Trina. I mean that, not one second. She is always in my head, always on my mind, forever in my heart. I love watching Asa play with something and telling him a story about how his mom played that with him or if it's a toy, the story behind sissy buying it for him. I know as he grows up he'll know all about his mom but his memories of her and the stories we've told him of her will blur together and he won't know which is which.

We are going to get school clothes in the next few days. That was unbelievably hard last year as the five of us would always go together and have such a fun time picking out clothes for our kids. To be honest I don't even remember doing it last year but I know I must have. I don't remember buying school supplies as it was supposed to be both sissy and me picking out the things that Asa needed for his first year in school and instead I was doing it for her. I don't remember a lot of things. In fact I was listening to U2 and thought "man, I wonder it would be like to see this tour live." It took me a good 20 seconds to remember that I had seen them on tour just over a month ago. I have no memory of the concert.

That said, we are doing our best to give the kids a fun summer. We went and saw "Cars 2", we went to the mall, we've gotten ice cream while out and about, we've rented tons of movies and video games, we've played with the water hose, we've driven 350 miles in five days taking Asa to soccer camp (take him, go home, bring him lunch, go home, pick him up, go home), we've done Fairy/Princess Camp for Valentina, Asa has another soccer camp coming up, we're going to do a road trip, we've swam in the pool, we've played on the swing set, we've had BBQ's and Asa was in a wedding. I've had to discipline the kids (I don't saw "we" in this instance because mom isn't much help in that regard, haha) and we've seen some improvement in Asa's anxiety issues.

This summer is flying by and before I know it both kidditos will be back in school. I love them both so much even when they frustrate me by not listening to me (at this very moment they are each in their respective rooms for not listening).

So that is what we have done this summer and what we have planned for what is left of summer.

I love my family so much and yet miss so desperately the one person who isn't here.

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