We were the closest family possible. Our world was turned upside down on 05/03/09 when my best friend, the person I love most next only to our children, my sister Trina was diagnosed with stage IV breast cancer. Her body gave out on her on 01/09/10 but she will ALWAYS be a part of our daily life and will continue to be in my posts. I started my blog to chronicle our daughter's international adoption from Guatemala and have continued to use it as a journal.

What you will find is my family trying to adapt to our new lives that were handed to us.

Saturday, January 01, 2011


Things have been going to hell in a hand basket lately and rather than sit here and bitch about it I'm just going to say things are hard. Unbelievably difficult and I never thought it could get worse. It can, it will and it does. I'm so fortunate for my family, especially the kids and Beya. I don't take one second with them for granted. It will be impossible to not compare the next few weeks to last year. I have no clue how we will get through them but we will, along with the weeks and months after that. No matter how hard I want to change things, to stop things, to keep things from happening, I can't. So instead I'm hibernating.