We were the closest family possible. Our world was turned upside down on 05/03/09 when my best friend, the person I love most next only to our children, my sister Trina was diagnosed with stage IV breast cancer. Her body gave out on her on 01/09/10 but she will ALWAYS be a part of our daily life and will continue to be in my posts. I started my blog to chronicle our daughter's international adoption from Guatemala and have continued to use it as a journal.

What you will find is my family trying to adapt to our new lives that were handed to us.

Tuesday, April 24, 2012


Does anyone else feel so incredibly incompetent and inadequate for the life they were given? Is it just me? Does anyone else feel like they are woefully unprepared to live the life they have? Does anyone else feel like they have failed everyone in their life?

Or is it just me? 


Kim said...

I feel that way most every day. Sorry you are feeling that way - but you aren't alone.

Anonymous said...

You are amazing. Period. Wait - EXCLAMATION MARK. Just wanted to say that in my outloud voice. Hoping tomorrow you feel even the littlest bit better than you feel today. Because that is something.

Patti B.

Anonymous said...

No, you are not alone :( I constantly feel like I missed a boat somewhere, or a life manual, ... I can't get a grip on anything and feel like I've failed as a friend to everyone I know... failed as a daughter... failed as a mother. The thing is the mental part of me says I can and I do some things right - but the insecure part of me says I'm a total screw-up. I feel like I've failed at everything I've ever done. And the sad part is - I have not even been through the kind of loss you have... I can only imagine how totally lost you must feel sometimes. But we keep on keeping on, ya know? For the kids. They need us, even though we wonder how on earth we can find the strength to get out of bed some mornings.

Anonymous said...

oh my goodness cameo you are alone at all--I feel like this daily ---My son is on the autism spectrum and our little guy that we adopted struggles with reactive attachment disorder (i have two more beautiful children :) ----I struggle daily with feeling like a failure --am i getting them enough therapy, am i enough for them it goes on and on and that is just the beginning--sometimes I feel like God allowed this in our lives to have me depend on him --
even though it is hard I feel like God does give me so many gifts in the midst of it all--for example my hubby and I are strong because of all of it --we have to be, we have to be their strength, it has given he and I a bond because no one loves or understands them like we do

anyway I just wanted to say you are not alone (((((HUGS))))))) to you beautiful Cameo

Anonymous said...

ps--because of my crazy life decorating has become my obsession --I loooove it!!!!--it is my therapy --i say I am creating a beautiful space in the midst of chaos--it is the one thing I can make pretty and relaxing for my boys --I want them to come home from school to a peaceful beautiful environment --and there are sooo many really fun ideas for not a lot of $ !!!!

I looove your posts about your family room and I can't wait to see pics!!! (you have to post pics!!! --please!)

Kheiron said...

Everyone feels that way at times. Even the people that seem to have it all under control experience it.

It becomes even more profound when you are responsible for the lives and well being of others.

Whether or not one is up to the challenge is always up to the individual. It really is that simple.