We were the closest family possible. Our world was turned upside down on 05/03/09 when my best friend, the person I love most next only to our children, my sister Trina was diagnosed with stage IV breast cancer. Her body gave out on her on 01/09/10 but she will ALWAYS be a part of our daily life and will continue to be in my posts. I started my blog to chronicle our daughter's international adoption from Guatemala and have continued to use it as a journal.

What you will find is my family trying to adapt to our new lives that were handed to us.

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Happy Birthday Asa

My dearest, sweetest Asa boy,

This morning at 8:58 am you turned 8 years old. Eight! You're in second grade! On one hand I can't believe how big and old you are and on the other hand you seem like you've always been this age. You are so fun and make me laugh. You play tricks on me and that was a GREAT one with the gum today!

You are so independent and now it's so easy to tell you "go take a shower and brush your teeth." I can also hear you yell at me "KLEENEX!!!!" when you sneeze so you don't have to get it yourself. I love watching you grow up. You are such a smart boy and I love watching you learn and become better at writing. I know you don't like to do it but you keep plugging away and doing your homework, even if it does take a ton of bribing and threats from me!

You are my favorite son and that will NEVER change!

You are so kind and I'm so proud of the fact that you have such good sportsmanship in soccer. You are nice to everyone and stand up for yourself. You also stand up for what you think is right and I am SO PROUD of that!

I hope that one day when you have kids you will know exactly how much I love you and how my heart explodes with love for you.

I love you so much!!!!!!

Happy Birthday my son.

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Erased And Written And Lost

I have three blog posts half written but each time I get halfway finished with them I have second thoughts about publishing them and I just hit the "save as draft" button.

So here's what has been going on in a nutshell;

Asa's soccer team hasn't lost a game yet. He's also scored in two of the three games.

Valentina lost her first tooth and the tooth fairy not only brought her $5 but luckily Valentina informed us before she went to sleep that apparently the tooth fairy brings a necklace too. That was news to mom and me!

Tomorrow is Asa's birthday. His third birthday without his mom.


I've been telling Asa for the past few weeks that his birthday present is his party. "It's expensive to throw a birthday party. Do you know how much your party is going to cost? It's going to be about $300. You might get something small but that's it, think of your party as your present." Yeah. Mom and I went to Target yesterday and I ended up spending $100 on five presents for him. The thing is he's such a great boy that he hasn't even asked me for any birthday gifts. Of course after I picked up the kids yesterday I had to give him one of his presents. It was a new toothbrush but he loved it. Yes, I know, I call it pulling a Jen.

So that is it. There is much, much more but, well, that's it for now.

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Political/Religious Rant

I guess I'm bored and am trying to stir up some controversy or a hornets nest because I know what I'm about to post is a hot fire button but it's one I feel strongly about.

I hate it when Papa watches Fox News. He's a news junkie and watches all news because he is the most well informed person when it comes to news and politics. If you want to know about anything in the news just ask him, he'll tell you. So on one hand it's great that he can be so well rounded and informed but on the other hand when he starts bringing in the Fox rhetoric into the house we don't agree on a lot of things.

Today his argument was that prayer should be allowed in public schools.

Oh no he di-int!

If there's one thing I feel strongly about it's that prayer does NOT belong in public schools! I don't want my kids having to pray in school. I'm not opposed to prayer per se but I send my kids to public school to learn about all walks of life. I wanted Valentina to learn about God so for two years I sent her to Catholic school. She talks about it a lot still, about how Jesus was born, died, etc.... I think it's great. What I don't think is great is if she learned about this in public school. I asked papa if he thought it would be ok if the Quran was taught in public schools. No, he didn't like that idea. I explained that it's the same thing. I'm not opposed to the Quran either but I don't want it read in public schools. I don't want the Torah read in public schools. I don't think the Bible should be taught in schools either. I also brought up a scenario that hit him at his heartstrings.

"What if Asa was being raised Jewish yet the schools were all about the Bible and Jesus? Asa would be left out. Is that ok?" No, papa had to admit that he didn't like that thought.

"Do you think Valentina would learn about other peoples beliefs in Catholic school? No, she wouldn't. That's why she isn't going to Catholic school. When I wanted her to learn about it I paid the tuition for her to have a parochial education. She learned the basics and now I want her to learn about EVERYTHING. I don't ever want either child to think there is only one 'right' way."

Another thing I love about our public school is that it is so diverse. There are kids from every socio economic class and ethnicity. I can tell you from experience that was NOT the case when she was in private school. There were two Hispanic kids and one Korean who was the adopted daughter of the teacher. That was it. And everyone had the same economic class, NOT the case in the school the kids are in now. Now I cannot say enough good things about Valentina's teacher. She knew we were involved with Judaism and she was always very accepting of that and was always very respectful of that fact. I loved her teacher. Unfortunately I can't say the same thing about the parents. 90% of them were the stereotypical conservative upper class white parents who pushed and pushed me to join the Catholic "mom's group." In fact I even nicknamed one of them "mom's group" because the only thing she ever talked to me about was that I needed to go to "mom's group."

To those who do send their kids to private school, great. I went to private school growing up. I never went to public school. But I feel that if I want my kids to be accepting of ALL people the best chance they have is to attend public school. If you want to pray with your child, great, I'm all for that. Hell, if your kid prays before lunch in public school that's fine too. But to have the teacher leading the kids in prayer or for the Bible to be used in school, well, I don't agree with that.

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

I Miss......

I miss you calling me out on my shit.

I miss you telling me "you hurt my feelings when you....."

I miss you answering your phone.

I miss you coming over, leaving and then finding half drank soda cans around the house.

I miss you arguing with me that you always drink all your soda.

I miss you laying on the love seat taking a nap with your bald head.

I miss you laughing at Asa.

I miss you laughing at Valentina.

I miss meeting your eyes and knowing exactly what you're thinking.

I miss us looking at each other and mom saying "oh, I know you guys are making fun of me. What did I do now?"

I miss giggling with you.

I miss us telling stories about growing up and having two totally views and versions of it.

I miss getting manic with you.

I miss our evening phone calls.

I miss our lunches.

I miss us watching tv over the phone together.

I miss talking to you about tv shows.

I miss you telling me about shows that you watch that I didn't.

I miss you posting on your blog.

I miss seeing your posts on Facebook.

I miss you telling me about a book you read.

I miss watching movies with you.

I miss us always vowing to see every movie nominated for Best Picture Oscar before the Oscars but never following through.

I miss us picking only the movies we had seen to win Oscars.

I miss us talking about the perils about bipolar.

I miss answering the phone and you being on the other end.

I miss the phone ringing and knowing why you were calling before I even answered.

I miss our psychiatrist appointments together.

I miss complaining about you to mom.

I miss the three of us complaining about each other.

I miss telling you secrets and then having you blurt them out, forgetting they were a secret.

I miss absolutely every thing about you.

I miss you.

Evil Laughter

Sometimes I just want a good, hearty laugh at someone else's expense. Oh, who the hell am I kidding, I always like a laugh at someone else's expense! Good thing I stumbled across this little gem online. Mom and I sat and watched it three times, laughing so hard tears started. Ah yes, oh so funny!

Tuesday, September 04, 2012

Oh Snap! Burn!

So I recently called Jen out on her wearing of her wearing her striped shirt ALL.THE.TIME. She even wrote a blog post about it.

This morning I'm cruising through OldNavy.com and what should I come across????

I think they stole the picture from her blog, after all, who better to model it than someone who has almost worn it out?