We were the closest family possible. Our world was turned upside down on 05/03/09 when my best friend, the person I love most next only to our children, my sister Trina was diagnosed with stage IV breast cancer. Her body gave out on her on 01/09/10 but she will ALWAYS be a part of our daily life and will continue to be in my posts. I started my blog to chronicle our daughter's international adoption from Guatemala and have continued to use it as a journal.

What you will find is my family trying to adapt to our new lives that were handed to us.

Friday, September 27, 2013


There are multiple reasons why I love U2 and even more so since Bono co-created Product (RED) back in 2006. I have been a staunch supporter of it since it first came about. I had a passion for the HIV pandemic in Africa when I first heard about it about 10-15 years ago. When Product (RED) was launched I was first in line to get a ton (almost literally) of (RED) shirts at Gap and Norm and I just handed them out.

Bono was on David Letterman last night and I got chills when I heard that due to YOU, people who have bought anything Product (RED) have provided almost 10,000,000 people with antiretroviral medications. Yes, that's 10 MILLION. Ten million people saved from (RED). As someone who knows the ripple effect one person has, the fact that almost TEN MILLION individuals are on medications to save them means that not just 10,000,000 are saved, there are easily 50,000,000 lives that have been impacted by this.

Think of this.

By buying (RED), from a coffee at Starbucks to an iPod from Apple, each and every one of you has had this massive effect.


YOU have done this. WE have done this together.

Please continue to buy (RED) and appreciate that by doing so you are saving someone, an entire family, of the grief that you have seen us go through.

May 2007
On our way to a Killers concert in our Product (RED) shirts

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

I'm Sorry

Yesterday was Asa's birthday party. I decided to do it on a weekday instead of a weekend. Partly because he had a few friends who wouldn't be able to make it on a Sunday and partly because it wouldn't take up a whole weekend by having it on a Sunday. Nope, this way it only took up FOUR days. I take that back, Saturday was taken up by attending an absolutely beautiful quinceanera.

Anyhoo, yesterday I picked up the kids from school and they were very excited to come home to a completely decorated and completed ready for a party house. On the three minute ride home Asa sadly said "I wish Grandma Dee was here." It broke my heart. He adored Grandma Dee and yet another important person who has died in his short little life.

"I'm so sorry" I told him. "I'm sorry Grandma Dee died and won't be there."

"And my mom" Asa added.

"Yes honey, I'm so sorry that your mom died too. I'm so sorry your mom isn't here for your birthday. I wish she was and I'm sorry she died."

"Why does everyone say that?" Asa asked, knowing full well why everyone says that, it was just his way of bringing up the subject of the people around him that have died. He then got uncomfortable and started joking around which is his way of saying he's done talking about it and is close to crying.

If my words sound harsh it's because one thing I learned from children's grief therapy (which was HORRIBLE, I can't begin to tell you how shitty it was) it is that you are supposed to use definitive words like died instead of vague words like "passed", "left", "moved on" and the like. Death is irreversible and kids needs to hear words that leave no doubt that their loved ones are never coming back. That is why I try my best to use these words with the kids.

Sometimes even I can't wrap my adult mind around these words.

Thursday, September 19, 2013

Pope Pope Hurrah

I am not Catholic. I am not Christian. I am not Atheist. I'm not even sure I'm Agnostic but it's how I lean. But one thing I AM is a fan of Pope Francis.

I love Pope Francis. I think he, as a person, is a really cool person. This article is yet another reason why I like him.

Tuesday, September 03, 2013

School Frenzy

I have at LEAST five good, solid, funny posts partially written but the one that's taking center stage right now is the one that is going on right now. 

Today is the day before school starts. I did great this summer. The kids are horrible to take clothes shopping so I was super smart and did all the back to school clothes shopping online over the summer. This way I was able to show the kids only the clothes I liked and scroll past any kitten head ones (yet another post). Just now the kids each pulled out all of their new clothes to figure out what they are going to wear tomorrow.

I guess I didn't do THAT great of job over the summer since Valentina has only one new pair of shorts and all the ones that I had bought Asa, the ones he liked when they were first delivered, have somehow changed shape, color AND fit because now he doesn't like them.

What did I say earlier?

The kids are horrible to take clothes shopping

Guess what I'm getting ready to do in about 5 minutes.

I'll be the mom wrangling two kids who hate clothes shopping, are very picky, have no patience and I'll be losing mine very quickly also. Of course we're on a time limit too since we have to be somewhere in about two hours.