We were the closest family possible. Our world was turned upside down on 05/03/09 when my best friend, the person I love most next only to our children, my sister Trina was diagnosed with stage IV breast cancer. Her body gave out on her on 01/09/10 but she will ALWAYS be a part of our daily life and will continue to be in my posts. I started my blog to chronicle our daughter's international adoption from Guatemala and have continued to use it as a journal.

What you will find is my family trying to adapt to our new lives that were handed to us.



Saturday, February 16, 2013

Happy Birthday Valentina

Happy birthday Valentina!

You are six years old now! So much has happened in the six years since we got "the call" that we finally had a baby. And not just a baby but a baby girl! I knew from the second I heard your name that you were my child. Two days prior on Valentine's Day I was crying to Beya, wondering when we were going to get "the call", wanting to know where our baby was. Beya said to me "just think, maybe your baby is being born today and if it's a girl then you can name her Valentina." Oh how I argued with her, that would never happen, we were not only going to have a boy but he wouldn't be born on Valentine's Day. Two days later, February 16, 2007, you were born to us. I will never forget the woman with our adoption agency telling me "it's a girl and her name is Valentina." I knew without a sliver of a doubt that yes, you were my baby girl.

You have changed my life forever in only wonderful ways. You make me do things I would never have done. You see life full of opportunities and exciting adventures to go on, just like your TT did. You are so much like her there are times when I think you are you. And yet you are just like me, so stubborn, sure of yourself, independent and never stop asking questions until you get an answer that makes sense to you.

I grew a whole new heart the day you were born to me and every day it grows bigger and bigger, even when I think it has grown as much as it can.

One thing that I love about you is that you never, ever, EVER walk anywhere. You are always skipping, jumping, galloping or running. You are just so eager to get to wherever you are going that you can't just walk there. Even if it's just going from one room of the house to the other you have to go quickly.

The way your face lights up when it's windy makes my heart swell. You feel the earth when you are picking flowers and talking to them. You can see things in life that I would never even be able to think of.

Thank you, Valentina, for being born to us, your family.

I love you forever.

Mama