We were the closest family possible. Our world was turned upside down on 05/03/09 when my best friend, the person I love most next only to our children, my sister Trina was diagnosed with stage IV breast cancer. Her body gave out on her on 01/09/10 but she will ALWAYS be a part of our daily life and will continue to be in my posts. I started my blog to chronicle our daughter's international adoption from Guatemala and have continued to use it as a journal.

What you will find is my family trying to adapt to our new lives that were handed to us.



Monday, February 18, 2013

Best Picture

Every year sissy, mom and I vowed to see all the movies nominated for Best Picture Oscar. The Oscars are kind of like a holiday for me. From the time I was about 10 I would listen to the Oscars. Yes, I said listen to the awards because we didn't have electricity, ergo no TV to watch them so I listened to them on the radio. That makes me sound like an old grandma, "back when I was a kid we didn't have these big tv's with HD. I had to LISTEN to shows on the radio and it was real radio, with commercials and static, not this Sirius or other new fangled 'radio' you have now."

I would dress up in beautiful ballgowns that were my grandma's and put on my elbow length evening gloves.....and use a sheer curtain as my shawl. I would cook dinner and pretend that I was one of the nominees, anxiously awaiting to see if I would make history as the first female winner of the Best Director Oscar. My hopes of that were dashed the year Kathryn Bigelow won for "The Hurt Locker". Oh, who am I kidding, they were dashed long before that!

Anyway, the point is every year the three of us promised to see all the movies. This was again way back when there were only 5 movies nominated.

Mom and I have been working with my therapist on pushing ourselves to do things that Trina would have done and we would have tagged along with her. This was one such thing that even sissy couldn't do. What better thing to tackle?

I'm proud to say that no, mom and I haven't seen every movie nominated but we have only two left! Okay, well, three but we made the decision to skip "Amour" after reading what it's about. It was hard enough that mom had to live through watching her mom grow old with dementia and become more and more dependant and have to put her in a nursing home that we made the choice that it was something we didn't need to watch on the big screen.

Oh, no, instead we went and saw "Beasts of the Southern Wild"......even after Dr. B said it was so frustrating and depressing that he had to turn it off. I believe his exact words were "I wanted to shout to the man 'put down the damn bottle of whiskey and take care of your kid!'" Oh, but mom and I knew better. We had to see it.

BIG MISTAKE.

I hate to cry. I hate to let go of my emotions and really feel, especially feel grief. Let me tell you, I couldn't stop crying at the end of the movie. Afterwards mom and I saw just sat there, trying to find one good thing about the movie.

We're still trying.

Anyway, we only need to see "Django Unchained" and "Zero Dark Thirty" and then we'll be done! And we WILL get it done this week!

The funny thing is, our favorite movie is the front runner and the first one we saw, "Argo".

I think from here on out we'll just see the movies we want to see and if they're nominated, great, if not, well, then we'll remind ourselves how "Beasts" was nominated for Best Picture and not knock ourselves out trying to see all of the movies.