We were the closest family possible. Our world was turned upside down on 05/03/09 when my best friend, the person I love most next only to our children, my sister Trina was diagnosed with stage IV breast cancer. Her body gave out on her on 01/09/10 but she will ALWAYS be a part of our daily life and will continue to be in my posts. I started my blog to chronicle our daughter's international adoption from Guatemala and have continued to use it as a journal.

What you will find is my family trying to adapt to our new lives that were handed to us.

Monday, July 28, 2014

I Miss Her So Much

As I was sitting here I was struck with a bolt of grief.

I miss my sister so much. I miss her so much that it physically hurts.

I miss teasing her.

I miss telling her my baby shower that she planned was the best day of my life.

I miss asking her if she could be quiet after hours of her incessant talking.

I miss her showing up unexpectedly at my house.

I miss laughing so hard with her that we both peed our pants.....but just a little.

I miss talking to her about our childhood and realizing we had very different memories.

I miss being able to ask her advice.

I miss her telling me what I'm doing wrong.

I miss planning trips with her that we knew we'd never take.

I miss going on trips with her.

I miss her phone calls.

I miss sitting down at the end of the evening and calling her after we'd spent all day together.

I miss her taking groceries from my cupboard.

I miss her asking and taking toilet paper and paper towels from me so she wouldn't have to go to the store.

I miss her stories about Asa.

I miss gossiping with her.

I miss her walking through the front door yelling out "sissy roo!"

I miss driving around with her.

I miss her giving me a hard time about the music I had on my iPod.

I miss everything about her.

The good and the bad.

I miss having a sister.

Friday, July 25, 2014

Papa's Pond Update

When you last saw the pond there was an air mattress floating on top of it to make shade for the fish. Papa did something even better. He wanted something more "natural" looking, plus a place for our frog to sit. So what did he do? Well he threw down an old piece of our fence of course! And then to make sure it didn't float away in our white rapids pond he tied each end of the fence to the pond. See? This is much better, right? 

The old, rotted fence board. Oh wait, what is on top of it? 

Oh, that's the plastic snake the kids used to throw at me to scare me. I hate snakes. I'm not sure what papa hopes to accomplish with putting the snake on the board, maybe he thinks it just looks more "natural." Or maybe he's trying to see how many plastic animals he can accumulate in our pond, you know you can't forget the flamingo!

Another reason he put the board on the pond was so that our frog would have something to sit on. One morning we looked out the window and sure enough, there was our (fugly) frog sitting on the board. 

 Here you can see the frog better..... along with the tie downs...... and the flamingo. Can't forget the flamingo!

One evening we were getting a little bored so we turned it into a photo party. As you can see, a dentist could remove Valentina's tonsils given how big her mouth is open. Wait, can you see anything, Asa's two teeth take up the whole frame. 

There's her gaping hole again. 

I swear, she is not capable of taking a photo with her mouth shut. 

There's my beautiful boy!

Oh, and my new baby. I needed (or "needed" as mom said) a new summer purse. I found this Michael Kors lovely and had to get it. It's really pink and the leather is so soft, I want to use it as a pillow. 

Okay. So Jen was talking to me this morning about how she has a black thumb. No my dear, I have a black thumb. These here are just a few of Beya's flowers. She does all the gardening and can take care of anything. I have no interest in making something grow so maybe that's why I'm bad, I forget to take care of plants. Except for one. I have a little plant that I have kept alive for well over a year. I'm so proud of it. Asa gave it to me when he was in second grade. If you can't read the sign in the pot it says "Life is short, pick the flowers." So true!

Why what is that puny little thing next to Beya's grand flowers? That's mine. Notice the difference? 

Yes, this is what I can keep alive. And I'm damn proud of it! 

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Tonight's Viewing Pleasure

This is what I saw when I looked out my living room window this afternoon:

You can even see Papa smiling in the third picture. Have I mentioned how much I love my family and grateful I am for them? They make my life so much richer and so much better. I am so thankful to have been born into this family. Even with all of the hurt and pain we are able to find fun in the small things. I am fortunate to be able to look outside and see this beautiful view.

Monday, July 14, 2014

Papa's Pond

When we first bought our house 8 years ago it came with a koi pond. One of the first things I wanted to do to the house was take out the koi pond, I wanted to put in a pool instead. Having a big backyard was one of the requirements when we were house hunting and this home fit the bill. Once we tore out the pond things would be perfect. 

And then papa saw the pond. 

Needless to say we still have the pond. The koi are long gone, they got eaten the first few months in the house, but Beya and Papa have replaced them with regular feeder fish. Every evening I look out my living room window to this view:

Oh how papa loves his fish. He feeds them and loves them and stares at them.

We used to have a catfish that would keep the pond nice and clear but that is also long gone which causes the pond to get dirty and muddy. Papa has been aching to get the pond cleaned up so I gave him the go ahead to drain and refill it. One summer he did this literally once a week, at LEAST. You don't want to know what our water bill was those three months.

Today while I took the kids to tennis lessons papa worked in his pond.

A very happy papa with a very clean pond.

Look! We can see the fish now! And the shells he lovingly placed in the bottom of the pond.

A wonderfully clear pond. Wait..... what is that in the background?

Something green......

Oh yes, an air mattress! Come on, you didn't think we could actually have a "normal" koi pond with doing it up MexiGhetto style, did you? The reason for the air mattress? Papa said the fish needed some shade :)

And what MexiGhetto koi pond is complete without a garish pink plastic flamingo?!

I'm so fortunate to have my parents live with me, my life would be so boring without them and I love them so much, with my whole heart.