I know my last post was really down in the dumps. And that's how I feel. I've had my parenting ridiculed, my emotions all over the place and told that basically nothing I do is right. On top of it Asa has been gone for two weeks while Josh's dad has been in town. As a result things have been pretty shitty.
However, one thing that I take full responsibility for (along with the crappy parenting, I already know that, I don't need people calling me out on it) is that mom and I haven't done our homework. Homework that our therapist prescribes to us.
We haven't had any fun lately.
Mom is working and it puts a serious crimp in our availability to have fun time. Fun as in something as simple as going to a movie. We haven't done anything fun in a long time. Nothing just for the two of us. Our therapist (who we haven't seen in about a month) recommends that we drink, do spontaneous things, act out in an irresponsible way, the same as Trina made us do. Trina made us be hoppers. We had to follow along her, hopping from thing to thing, place to place, following her along like the pied piper.
We haven't hopped.
I know Norm is more than willing to watch the kids one evening while mom and I go hop, he is an amazing father and has become a better husband. We are trying our best to be a team and it seems to be working. We are even leaving the kids for four nights next month while we do a getaway, just the two of us. He wants me to do what makes me happy because he knows it translates into me being a better and happier person. However Beya and I haven't had the strength to be hoppers right now. August really weighs us down which makes hopping difficult yet it is when we need it the most.
So there is HOMEWORK TO DO!!!! Homework that MUST get DONE! Off we go to do some homework!
I just don't know when.
But we must hop on.