We were the closest family possible. Our world was turned upside down on 05/03/09 when my best friend, the person I love most next only to our children, my sister Trina was diagnosed with stage IV breast cancer. Her body gave out on her on 01/09/10 but she will ALWAYS be a part of our daily life and will continue to be in my posts. I started my blog to chronicle our daughter's international adoption from Guatemala and have continued to use it as a journal.

What you will find is my family trying to adapt to our new lives that were handed to us.

Sunday, April 26, 2015


Yesterday was our second soccer game of the season. Last week we handily beat our opposing team but this week was a different story. Yesterday we played a tough team and at halftime there was still no score. I was sitting next to Beya and two other moms and we were all nervous wrecks. Yes, we take our soccer waaaaay too seriously. After the second half started I discovered there was an asshole dad from the other team standing behind us. He started screaming "encouragement" to the other team. I have rarely wanted to punch someone so badly. Then, as if from a movie, something happened that was so beautiful. Asa made a goal! He cheered himself and as he ran across the field his teammates congratulated him. Asa threw his arms up in relief and pure joy. It was truly an emotional moment. It turned out to be the game winning goal as it was the only goal scored in the entire game. Even better? The asshole jerk shut the fuck up after Asa made the goal!

Soccer is truly a team sport and last week there were six incredible goals scored, none by Asa. But watching Asa make the sole goal of the match, well, chalk it up to a very proud mom moment!

Sunday, April 19, 2015

Soccer Season On!

The soccer season started yesterday. We had our first game and I was so stressed leading up to it. Asa has been in a group of 6 players that have been together for about 4 years. They know each other really well. They know each others strengths and weakness. They know what the other player is thinking and where they have to be. This season, however, we needed 18 players. We had 6. What to do? We didn't want to split up the kids and have them each join various teams. What to do? Well we decided to see if one of the other good teams (who had beat us twice last season) wanted to merge and create one super team. Thankfully they agreed and practice started last month. Their team had been playing together for a year or two also. Not bad considering we have to have 11 players on the field at all times. 

So, yesterday was our first game. I was all stressed out. What if our kids weren't as good as I thought they were? What if the other team regretted merging with us? What if we lost? What if they blamed our 6 for losing? What if.....?

We got to the field yesterday and it was BIG! We are playing up in our age group which means the teams we're going against are a year older than us. Our 17 players have only been playing together for a month. Who knows how long the other team had been playing together for. 

Our kids got in place, the whistle blew and the game started. We were off for another soccer season. 

The other team scored a goal. I kept thinking if we could lose by a goal then that would be ok. That wouldn't be as soul crushing as if we lost by a lot. But we were only about 10 minutes into the game and we were already down a goal. We had 50 more minutes to play. The game is separated into two 30 minutes halves. I kept time on my phone and looked at it every 90 seconds or so. 

The next thing I knew is we scored a goal! Great! If we could just TIE the game then our kids will have the boost they need to cement them into one great team. 

Long story short we ended up winning the game 6-2! I did feel bad for the other team because I know what it's like to be on the losing end. Fall season we lost every single one of our games. Half of our team had never played soccer before. We know how badly it hurts to lose by a big margin. 

Our team came together and played great. It was the boost we (I) needed to give us some confidence and realize that merging the two teams was the right call. Granted, we are only one game into the season and I will still be a ball of nerves before every game but this was a wonderful start. 

Good job Asa and teammates!!!!